Pain is real and it comes in various forms with differing intensities. Some forms of pain are obvious to others, while many are not. Obvious or not, it does not change the fact that it is real and it hurts! Physical pain is hell, I will not deny this, but it can only hurt on a surface level. Emotional/Mental pain takes it to a whole different level! That kind of pain cuts straight through your body and into your core, your very soul! Physical wounds tend to heal but there is no way to put a bandaid on this kind of pain. The wounded soul is very difficult to heal, especially if there is a chemical imbalance in the brain, which hinders your thinking process. When the brain is sick, it malfunctions, just as the rest of our organs do when we get sick. A healthy brain will not obsess over negativity, but when things aren't going well and there is a trending topic that is going on inside, your brain will take that and run with it. It will go into overtime analyzing, processing and recirculating it in your brain over and over and over. For some people, without help, this spirals and spirals until the only viable solution within their mind, is to cease to exist. How does someone decide this? Truthfully, for someone who does this, many times they were dead inside long before that final moment. Smiles and laughter mean something, but they don't mean everything. When smiles and laughter are used as a mask, many times that person is just going through the motions, hoping that they can fake it until they make it or just to hide the truth altogether. Everyone wants to be seen in their best light and there is so much shame attached with depression. But why? Why are we judging these people while we sit back and do nothing? Do you really get an input, after the fact, when you did nothing to try to stop it? I include myself in this; It has been years since my attempt, but I could have spoken up a long time ago and I do have friends who have succumb to this since that day! If I had spoken up, maybe they would have known that they could talk to me. I won't dwell on that, but I will carry it with me so that I never forget to be that key for another. If you really want to make a difference in the world; if you really want to find peace and happiness - Step outside of yourself and do something from your heart for another. Drop your agenda and see what happens when you push out the hatred and judgement and simply choose to love another heart and value that heart enough to get down on your knees next to them and help them rise again! Your life, your outlook and your heart will change!
If you are someone who is hurting today, let me tell you something. YOU are stronger than this! You don't have to change everything all at once, but it's time to take some baby steps! RETRAIN YOUR THINKING- something that I did for myself, was everytime I had a negative thought, I got an index card and decorated it and put a positive quote, affirmation or scripture and then I hung it up in my bathroom, bedroom, kitchen, my car and so forth. I took each negative and I turned it into a positive and everytime I brushed my teeth or washed dishes, I forced myself to read these words over and over again! Another thing is the gym- When I am stressed, upset or feeling depressed, I put on some angry music, I let myself get MAD and then I work out as hard as I can, then I leave the frustration right there in the gym! It is another way of redirecting; Instead of letting it eat me alive, I take it to the gym and I let it fuel me to build my strength [getting sexy in the process is just a bonus ;)]. These are just two examples but maybe you can build from there! You can be happy again but it will never happen if you aren't willing to reach out to another or take steps on your own! Again, I am ALWAYS here for someone who needs someone to talk to. I have the key and I'll be more than happy to share my key with you and eventually give you a duplicate! =]
I made a video today, I invite you to watch it. My phone stopped recording at the end, but I still wanted to share this with you! (At the end, I was only trying to say that I will spend every day from here on out trying to be better than the day before, to be a person that my children will be proud of and a person worthy of forgiveness)
i attached the link but i am including it right here - you may have to copy and paste or type it into your browser)
http://youtu.be/mJJ_qUSpqN4